Monday, June 4, 2012

Senior Jitters

As of about 10:00am Saturday morning, I am officially a Senior in high-school! (having just then turned in the last of my schoolwork) It's completely crazy to think about and I have yet only uttered it aloud once or twice. People have told me that high-school seems to go by in a heartbeat or the blink of an eye, but for me it has been more like the ride "Tower of Doom" at Elitch Gardens. When first starting out you begin the slow and painstaking climb, ever so slightly inching your way up, having no idea what to expect. About one fourth of the way, you feel like you may have your bearings and are trying to assure yourself that you can actually do this. But  more than half way to the top, though the view is breathtaking, you are pounding your head against the back of the seat asking yourself why you even got on this ride and are frantically trying to find some way out. Then you reach the top of the tower. It seems to pause for a few moments to let you enjoy the view (hah, yeah right), but most of us are so caught up in what we know will happen next, that we don't take the time to look around. Then, we are falling- 200feet down at a break-neck pace to where it seems we first started.
      This analogy best describes my years in high-school, I don't know about the rest of ya out there, but it seems about right. After graduating it seems like your back where you started, for those who know what they want to do and are going off to college, this means becoming a freshmen all over again. Also, it feels like this for those of us who have no clue what we are going to do *coughlikemecough* but (most of the time) I realize it might be better that way, if you have no idea what you want to do, doesn't that just leave it wide open for God to work through you however He wills? I try to keep this perspective as my last year of high-school looms over my head, because while I am beyond excited to be finished (never to see the light of algebra again), honestly, I'm also trying not to panic.
As Jeremiah 29:11 so fittingly and plainly states:
" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."